i want a holiday!

i'm thinking of a short holiday to either cambodia or hong kong between 22nd - 26th March.
any takers?

anyway, for those clueless, i've tendered my resignation! i'll be starting my new position near end of march. hence, all the more i need a holiday!
moving on to the commercial world, annual leave is pathetic and little. not like my current job where i got to enjoy endless overtime leave.
*sigh* you win some, lose some.

sometimes, i find myself reconsidering my decision to leave. is it the right choice?
i need to discuss more with others to make myself more convinced of my decision.

anyway, i'm looking forward to this saturday! should be heading to zouk with my dear friends! its been TOO LONG! :)

had a fever yesterday night and spent most of today feeling terrible in my bed. luckily, i feel much better now. hopefully, i'll recover fully in time for this saturday! :)

for those who may not know yet, i've cut my hair! now i look like this:

anyway stop asking me why im cutting my hair when im getting married this year! the wedding is still a good 7 months away and i'm sure my hair will grow longer by then. also, i like myself in short hair. period.

i've a good weekend with dear dear. felt like we are out on a date once again. :)
though we didn't do much but just roam around orchard before settling for dinner at crystal jade. anyway, crystal jade queue is atrocious! singaporeans visit crystal jade like its just another mac! ridiculous!


at my house before we set off!



i love xiao long baO!
oh yah, we found a birthday bear whose date falls on our wedding date (25th Sept)! ah long was reluctant to buy it as usual, though it only costs $1.20! i got it myself in the end and made him take a picture with it. ha.


sunday was spent lazing at his house playing with that favourite baby of mine! but he doesn't smile as much when with me. bleh~


we went to our house to take a look again. its been nearly 1 month since i last went up!
here's some pictures for those who are interested.

master bedroom

master bedroom toilet

our living room

our dining area & foyer

our kitchen!

i can't wait for renovation to start soon! but deciding on a contractor can be a troublesome and time-consuming process. let's crossed our fingers and hope renovation will start by end March!

brokeback mountain

i'm in love with Jake Gyllenhall. :)
he was cute in "jarhead". he was cuter in "broke back".

in jarhead

jack! (right)

but i must admit, it was heath ledger who steal the show in brokeback. he was simply marvellous. he made me teared during the show, especially in the last scene of the show. *sigh* i want them to be together!

everyone out there, pls try to catch brokeback! it was really good. i was so moved by the love between them in the show. the notion "homosexuality" never ever crossed my mind once. it was just love.

alot of people love to argue with me that "hey, this is just a gay show!". but they are missing the whole point. they are just denying themselves of the chance to catch a superd show that really test one's definition of love.

like what one of the character's said during an interview:
"brokeback mountain is a place one doesn't have to live up to anyone's expectations or care about other's opinions.
everyone has their own brokeback mountain somewhere.
so if you bring someone to your own brokeback mountain and realise you still love him despite everything.
you do truly love him."

i would really love to watch the show again. that's all i know.

i love this baby!

how can you not?!

am i ready....

to start a new chapter in my (working) life?

after 2 and a half years in my current company, i'm suddenly faced with 2 new job offers. well, not suddenly but a result of nearly 2 months of mad frenzy of sending resumes, going for a handful of interviews and praying madly to get an offer. and finally, here they are.

and then.... i feel lost.

what an idiot. 2 questions to answer. which should i take up? should i leave my current firm?

1) which should i take up?
i know the sequence of questions is wrong but i really want to weigh the 2 options and try to visualise where will each one take me to.
after talking to numerous people (6 no less!) today, the fog started to clear a little. i guess i sorta know what i want, but i just need more assurance.
2) should i leave my current firm?
i guess the answer is quite obvious. i'm leaving.

or maybe not. sigh.
I'll miss the late office hours, the flexibility, the long leave, the pay prospects. but everything that is also good about the job is slowly leaving me the longer i stay on. my friends, job satisfaction, happiness. :(

i'll have to give both of them an answer by tomorrow. i guess 船到桥头自然直。whichever decision i make, i hope i've the strength to make it through. at least for 2-3 years before i start looking out for new positions again. ha.

some things never change. i love interviews! sick huh? :p

our 4th year anniversary!

12th feb 2006. yup, we have been together for 4 years!

it's great that we've fun yesterday as we've been planning for this day for weeks! thanks to credit card reward points, we were able to book a night at conrad for only 160 bucks nett. the room will cost us ard $300+ originally for a night! madness!

so we checked in at 1.30pm (earlier than the stated check-in time of 2pm, being kiasu singaporeans)! i love the hotel. some said its 5 stars, some even claimed it to be a 6. whatever, i love the place regardless! it was the most luxurious hotel i ever stayed in my entire life. we've a huge classic room on the 21st floor with great view (facing suntec & river), huge bathtub with complementary bath salts, bathrobes, super comfy bed, body moisturiser inclusive even! i love to stay in the room forever!

i love our room. cosy!

bathed & ready to go!


dear dear and me!

we set off to do some shopping at orchard. we tried the ice cream from gelatissimo at shaw centre. i love the texture! it's almost like those gelato i tasted at italy! but taste-wise, i find them a little thin. aint as sweet as bravissimo. but yummy nevertheless!

we tried tiramisu & veronese (actually it tasted like rocher) chocolate!

after, its shop shop shop for us! yes, US! even ah long bought a polo tee, a shirt and socks! wow, impressive for someone whom i'm accountable for half of his wardrobe. ha.
myself? i've been deprived for too long! my last clothing was bought during my sunway lagoon trip (remember? eons ago!) in mid-dec 2005!
in the end, i bought 2 pairs of shoes and ah long get me a top! :)

i love the green one especially. i hope they don't give me blisters! (crossed fingers)

i love black & pearls. perfect!

dinner time! again, with the help of credit card reward points, we got ourselves $50 voucher for menotti (at raffles city)!
dinner was good. i especially love their lagsane & warm chocolate cake. i love the way they keep the lagsane wet and generous with the cheese and meat bits in EVERY single layers! i prefer their cake over bakers inn's one too. theirs is different in that the chocolate doesn't ooze out. but the taste is really good! *yummy*

bb with his linguine with lobster meat

me & my fav lagsane!

ooh....warm chocolate cake!

we take a slow walk back to our hotel after dinner. the area at marina square & esplanade is lovely in the evening! we lazed around more in our room till 9pm and then it's movie time! we went to catch "jarhead" at marina GV! the show was alright, definitely better than "walk the line". it has its funny moments, but sam mendes failed to reach me the way he did with "american beauty". sigh, i want a good film! will "brokeback" this coming thursday be the answer?

we dropped by Pan Pac on our way back to hotel after the show. i live the louge ambience there! they have lovely decors, strings of lanterns. for the festive, perhaps?

nice!

woke up early this morning for our complimentary buffet breakfast at oscar's! i really feel like a goddamn tourist, ha! anyway, was greeted by this lovely view!


:) breakfast was fabulous. They served charwanmushi! fresh milk, tons of fruits, congee with pork floss, siew mai, waffles with nutella! okie, im easy to please.


okie, then it's back to civilisation for us. heh. though today IS the actual day for our 4th year anniversary, we felt beaten out. after checking out at 2pm today, we left for my home and napped most of the afternoon away. ha~

on the MRT. look! he's smiling! he enjoyed himself apparantly!

i hope everyone has themselves a great weekend too! later.....!

i can't believe it....

yes, i can't believe it. that I've been with him for 4 years already. technically, 4 years this coming sunday.
yup with this man.



















he may not be the ideal boyfriend to some. heck, he's not my ideal boyfriend even. but, deep down, i know he's the best i can ever get.
he doesn't believe much in buying me flowers, nor springing me surprises. that's not to say he never do such things, just seldom.
he believes in making sure that i eat my meals properly. he believes in making me a better person. though that sometimes lead to arguments between us. lol~

i've my doubts about the relationship, before. especially during our first year together and when we both started working. i've wanted to give up on him and the relationship many times before. though many of my friends would say its all due to my own 钻牛角尖。but i stuck on, again and again. (well, you can say he stuck on to too. :P) why? many reasons.

the hardest period was when we both started working. so little time together and so much insecurity, mostly from me. he compromised a lot. he still does, now. i appreciate him for this.

my best and worst holidays was the same. europe (italy+france) trip in summer 2004. best because it was italy. worst because i've never been so sick before in all my overseas trips. i still remember, it was a sunday at disneyland. i was down with fever and threw up my dinner the night before. he advised me against the disneyland trip. but stubborne me insisted on it. i've fun that day (well, half of it). by 5pm, i ccould take it no more. i puked again and i felt like shit. in the end, i slept on his lap for 2 hours. and he just sat there, taking care of me the whole time. i remembered me thinking to myself then, i think he's someone who can take care of me. i think i can entrust myself in his care. and ever since, this memory always make me think twice when i was about to give up on the relationship.

and we look alike. umm.. at least i think so. ha

he makes me feel loved. everyday. from his simple messages to when he reaches for my hand if i ever walk a little further from him. that's why i'm still with this man.
yup, this man.


who'll do anything (well, almost anything...) to make me happy. he drew me the most horrible birthday cards ever. he accompanied me to overseas trips (un)willingly. he accompanied me to watch a lot of movies which he walked out with a huge scowl on his face (the latest being "walk the line"). he put up with my problem with puntuality (every)sometimes. he bought me little snacks (be it hello panda or jack n jill chips) whenever i pop over his place to stayover.

of cos, there is always room for improvement. he can learn to be more sensitive, less nonchalent, more romantic, less stingy, more accepting, less nagging, oh whatever. oh, he definitely can learn to smile more in photos!

no kidding. this is his normal expression. like the whole world owe him a freaking dollar.

but im happy with this man, still. so i guess you guys will still be seeing him around me. :)

okie, back to tomorrow. we are gonna celebrating our 4th year anniversary! it's gonna be the last time we are celebrating 12th Feb. next year onwards, there's gonna be only one date for anniversaries - 25th Sept! so we are gonna have fun on 12th Feb 2005. we are going to stay at conrad for a night tomorrow and count down to our anniversary! lol~ sound mad.

will post pictures of tomorrow soon!

incoherent blabbering

my love/hate relationship with blackjack
i love blackjack.
when im playing with my large extended family. there is always so much laughter and fun. though my uncles' booming voices often deafen me. when i win money, of cos.
i hate blackjack.
when i lose money. period . ha.

CNY dinner with my colleagues
we went to that steamboat restaurant (can't remember name) at suntec there. the food was horrible and variety of food limited.
luckily i've fun company to make the dinner bearable.
here they are!


my stay at conrad
im going to stay at conrad this saturday! so happy!
i hope i'll have a fun time there with dear dear!

back to work for me. sigh, peak is not yet over!