i think im self-centred

Adj.1.self-centred - limited to or caring only about yourself and your own needs

yes, i think i fit the above description. either that or im just plain lazy.
just realised that my blog rarely speaks about anything else, other than (you got it!) MYSELF.
if you look carefully at the sidebar, you will see a note from me proclaiming that this blog belongs to ah long and me.
that's a false fact (if such an oxymoron phrase existed) which most of you should know by now.
any traces of ah long in my blog are from me. which means, the chance of distortion of who he truly is IS very high.

so in short, he can be better or very very very much worse than what i mentioned here. *hiaks*
i really hope he wont see this entry.

but today, i want to talk about something other than myself.
i want to talk about my friend (M) who is currently going through a very rough patch in life. i hate it when im at a loss when it come to comforting/encouraging others. and believe me when i say that i suck at such things.
still, i really hope M can find the strength to pick Mself up.
if you happen to read this post and you know who you are, remember you are not alone. you still have us who really care for you! :)
so pull through this difficult period fast and have faith that your life can only be better from now since this is already the rock bottom (?)!

im sorry but i just got to update something about myself. (i'm self-centred, remember?!)
x'mas is fast approaching and i still cant feel the joyous vibes yet. why? :(
and as broke as i can be, im troubled over what i should buy this coming december. i need to reward myself with something for x'mas/my bday/what-so-ever!
the question of the year is: "should i get a watch or a wallet?"
hmmm......

p/s: some justification for the purchase
1) watch: i've only ONE watch currently. a DKNY which is a gift from my closest friends for my 21st bday. anyone who knows my age will know that by this dec, this watch would have been with me for X years. after 3 changes of battery for it, i think its time to get a NEW one for myself. seriously, im getting bored of its very-scratched strap.
2) wallet: i've a really nice bag which i would love to use every single day of my life. problem is, it's small and my current long wallet CANT fit into it. i need a new wallet to go with the bag. yup, just this frivolous reason. :)

some photos from my actual day! :)

i lost my touch with MJ! its used to be me winning all the wayyyyyyy last time.
but goodness, i actually 是大输家 yesterday！*meg hair*
where has all my luck go? yes, i insist its more of a game of luck than anything else. blehhhhh!

anyway, despite losing $$, i had fun with grace, zm, ser & gb. night was spent having intimate chat with them.
gb, hear this here! i really love to 掏心掏肺！ lol!
we should have more of such sessions in the future! though i got an earful from hubbi from reaching home late. :P


been spending $$ like nobody's business. if i've to resort to eating bread during the joyous season of x'mas, its no one's fault but myself.
i can't believe i buy n buy! arg! like i earn $10k or what per mth when the truth couldnt be any further. i must be mad!

it must be the bling at orchard and the x'mas music getting to me. *pui*
so after a furla cardholder, a clutch bag AND shoes (yet another pair) from tangs, shu uemura make up remover, 3 mths supply of contacts n solution, cleaning fees for my coach bag, an order for a coach wristlet (yes, yet another coach) from my colleague whos going to the states, im totally broke.
and on top of all these nonsense, i've to lose $$ at the MJ table! why, oh why!?


the only thing(s) keeping me happy nowadays are the fact that x'mas is really coming, 2006 is finally coming to an end & i'm getting my AD photos soon!
yes, after so long. *heh*
i cant wait to see the AD coffee table album especially!

*happy* ladida

1) hubbi and i selected photos from our honeymoon trips (HK/Turkey/Greece) and sent them to be developed on saturday. *happy*
2) i managed to see my fav. peanut baby on saturday. AND he remembered me despite not seeing me for a month! *happy*
3) rewarded myself (for nothing) with a furla cardholder on sunday. it's brown and pink and very nice. *happy*
4) had a belly nice dinner with hubbi, mum & relatives on sunday. *happy*
5) received chocolates & nice tiffany & co. x'mas cards from hubbi's german colleague yesterday. *happy*
6) bought a photo album just now during lunch. going to collect photos later in the evening. looking forward to sorting out photos at night with hubbi. *happy*

its such small little things in life that make my days beautiful. :)

everyone should go and listen to this song. i find it so awfully sweet...............!!!

梁静茹 - 我是幸福的
黄昏过后 暖暖的晚风中
在小公园里头 眼眶红了
看老公公和老婆婆在散步着
把手牢牢握着星星亮了
我觉得幸福就是这样的

几十年后 你也变老公公
我当你的柺杖 扶着你走眼睛花了
你老花眼镜就是我
把时间忘了 慢慢走美丽风景
我为你转播不让你错过

能和你牵手 我是幸福的
你就像温柔又顽固的石头
用心盖了座 最美的城堡叫永久 圈住我
不管过再久也会幸福的
我们都走过了动摇的时候
爱已变成树 就算是有风会平息的

被懂我的人爱着 我是幸福的
连沉默都能是交流
你总是能给我比我想的还要多 我爱你

不做你的公主 我要做你的快乐

why the onslaught of songs? why, my ipod nano is back in business!

sucker for U2's songs

"What you don't have you don't need it now
What you don't know you can feel it somehow"

"with or without you" has the best climax to a song ever.
i totally DIG bono's voice! *woohoo*
it's still the best song of my life!

been feeling a nagging sense of loss from the rather lack of direction in life these few days.
maybe its near the end of the year.
feel like there's not much to look forward to and that troubles me.
another month plus to x'mas but i'm not feeling any of the "ho ho ho" spirits yet.
damn.

whatever. it's a beautiful day. today at least.

photos!

here's some photos from my recent trip!
just a summary of most of the places i've been to.

for those who want to see more photos, u just have to pop by my place for that. :P

Hajia Sophia Museum at Istanbul - church turned to mosque

Trojan Horse at Troia

Acropilis at Pergamon

Library of Ephesus City (wonder of ancient world)

Cotton castle at Pamukkale

Fairy chimneys at Cappadocia

Hippodrome Sq at Istanbul

Blue Mosque or SultanAhmet Mosque at Istanbul

Underground city at Cappadocia

open air Goreme museum at Cappadocia

Ataturk museum at Ankara

Topkapi Palace at Istanbul

Acropolis at Athens

Little Venice at Mykonos Island

Dormant volcano at Santorini Island

Red beach at Santorini Island

restless

blogspot doesnt allow me to upload photos so i guess those have to wait.
meanwhile, im just feeling damn restless at work.
unable to concentrate on tasks on hand (nothing new by the way).

all i want to do later is to dash for home straight after work.
to arm myself with my favourite pack of jack n jill salsa chilli chips, my good o' First mag, a cup of heaven n earth green tea and retreat to a secluded corner of my sofa for some quality "me" time.
i really need this.

6.30pm, fast fast come!

i'm back but totally pooped.
jet-lagged feeling can be so blah!

more photos later.
meantime, just wanna say that my fear for flying has taken a definite turn for the worse after this trip.
i was a bundle of nerves for each of my 6 flights for this trip.

especially the last 10hours plus flight back to singapore.
i even had a nightmare of our plane plunging to the sea.
on the flight itself.
imagine jerking up from one of your worst nightmare only to realise you have another 6 hours to go on air.
damn that.

oh, and the fear for terroism too.
i was suspicious of almost everyone on board with me.
we seems to be the only singaporeans on board.
and i just cant understand why the hell would so many turkish want to come to singapore?!
arg! its a bad journey back.

such an irony for someone who proclaims that travel is her life to develope a phobia for flying.
*gag*