updates (long overdue)!

im officially jobless now~! trying hard to enjoy my rest days before starting work (again!) next monday. getting the jitters with working in a totally new environment but being me, im sure i'll survive well!

okie, updates about my life!

1) gym workout at great world city (15th Mar)
was unable to upload pixs in my previous post. here they are~! me + my fantastic colleagues!

nelly closed her eyes again!

me n PP!

2) frances & my farewell party at sentosa (18th Mar)
my colleagues were so sweet to organise an outing to sentosa for our farewell party! we've great fun on that day despite a short-life downpour and beer spilling down my shorts. yay, my shorts reeked of beer for the rest of the night! arg!

group pix! thanks to the timer function of my camera!
we played volleyball and frisbee! i finally know how to throw a frisbee properly! the main focus for the outing is supposed to be the latin jazz at siloso beach. but half the time we were just having fun within our group. and seriously, i feel the singer was sprouting malay lyrics! oops, where have my jazzy bone gone to!?

frances & me!
i've tons of fun that day and i'm glad im leaving my firm with many many wonderful memories. thanks, peeps! for making the outing a successful one!

yay!

3) V for Vendetta (20th Mar)
caught this movie with my colleagues on my second last day in the firm.
it was a superd movie! i love V! i love his voice! i love his fanciful words and analogies! i love his guy fawke's mask!

this is like the 3rd nicest show i ever watched this year (after fearless & brokeback)! everyone pls go catch it!

4) my farewell (21st Mar)
im so sad,......after 2 1/2 years in my firm, im finally saying goodbye. i've found my best team this year but yet im leaving them so now. *sobz*
my assistants were so sweet! they came back to office to have lunch with me. they even bought a cute piggy cushion (ashley V!) and apple crumbler cake for me! i cried when i read their farewell letters and cards. so so sad. i dont wanna leave them! :(

my favourite team! i'll miss you guys tons!

me + the yummy cake!

me & ashley V! mummee took the pix for me!

5) chill out session with my hall mates! (22nd Mar)
it has been eons since i last met up with my hall mates! we've a nice dinner at pepper lunch (though that place stank!) and after that, we moved on for a little drinking session at Timbre. For those uninformed, Timbre is located at where Fat Frog used to be. EIC was playing the night and i love them! very very good sessions though i left after their second set.

tresa, me & fiona! tresa, i miss you too!

this is my curly-haired friend. pls refer to previous previous post!

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6) Outing with usual gang at marina square (24th Mar)
met up with the gang tonight again..no full attendance but 6 out of 9 is good enough. dinner was at secret recipe and once again, i was tortured by the tom yum noodles! desserts were good, though! :)

we met at 7pm and left for home around 10 plus. thought time spent together was short, i've a great time nevertheless. we were counting our years together and the figure came up to like 12 years? scary, i havent feel that old yet.

me & zm!

fake candid shot!

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7) updates on renovation
dear dear and me had made a trip down to balestier road this afternoon with our contractor to choose tiling for our house! we chose a nice shade of bach color for homogenous tiling for living & dining area! we also chose the slate tiles & pebbles wash for our foyer area.

tomorrow we'll be meeting up with our contractor to choose the color shade for the laminated wood for our bedrooms as well as sign the contract with a wardrobe company for the installation of the wardrobe in our master bedroom! hmm, seems like im gonna be busy with renovation stuff for the net 2 months at least.

hope everything will turn out fine and my house will be in ready to live-in by June! Yippee yay!

work-out

had a good work-out with colleagues at great world city planet fitness! now my whole body is aching! i dread tomorrow!! hope my body does not disintegrate itself in the middle of the night!

i've a fun time with them. i'm gonna miss them so much after i leave the firm. *sobz*
but life is like that, people move on constantly. sometimes it's you, sometimes others.

i love my colleagues!

music, memories and somemore.

warning! long entry ahead. pls avoid if you find swimming words a headache.

it's amazing how some songs managed to take me on a journey down memory lane. been listening non-stop to my MP3 player whenever i was on the go these 2 days. i know how some people associate pictures or even scents with past events, but songs do the trick for me. some songs are more precious to me because they accompanied me through certain phrases of my life. i've since stopped down-loading MP3 from the net ever since uni days (?), hence the songs in my MP3 are mostly old. okie, been listening to these few songs over the past 2 days and each has a story behind it, at least to me!

Enigma - Return To Innocence
i remember how i fell in love with the tune of this song while working part-time in a small bookstore at my neighburhood then. i was in sec 2. i bought the cassette with my first pay and found out the rest of the album sucks. lol~
i associated this song with alot of things. it was widely rumored then that enigma songs are satanic and it seems to be the case from the graphics in the lyrics page and lyrics content of other songs. whatever the case, the lyrics for this song strikes a chord in me.
"If you want, then start to laugh
If you must, then start to cry
Be yourself don't hide
Just believe in destiny.
Don't care what people say
Just follow your own way
Don't give up and use the chance
To return to innocence."

i love the part where he (yes, enigma is a male singer!) croons and croons at the end of the song. very haunting. i remember the time when me & my best friend then sang the same part at the top of our lungs at a playground at bedok interchange in the night. we were only 14. lol~ she was still my best friend now and im not even sure if she remembers that night. but i like that night. sometimes, enjoying a nice song with someone dear can be very satisfying. :)

i remember how in awe i was when i first saw the MV for this song. it was really innovative then as the scenes were all playing in reverse to match the theme of "return to innocence". but 10 year later, we see coldplay doing the same thing with "the scientist" MV. funny how trends repeat themselves. sometimes, i think innovation is dead. everything is just a product of creativity.

Goro Inagaki
okie, this is not a song but a singer. in fact, he's a member of SMAP, the ever popular boy band from Japan. i knew about him before SMAP the band which is a wonder given SMAP popularity. heck, i know him even before Kimura Takuya ( the other member of SMAP)!
In case, you've no inkling who-so-ever is Takuya, THIS is him!


and this is Goro Inagaki.

Goro

As you can see, he's not fantabulously handsome but he did managed to steal some hearts back in my Sec 3 days. it all started from this japanese serial "20岁的约束" i still remember a particular curly-hair of mine and me were very mad about him. we learnt that he's a singer too hence we went to the music store (was that music junction?! i cant believe music junction was already up and functioning 10 years ago?!) to look for his CD and realised then he belonged to this band - SMAP.

lol~ little did we know SMAP is like H-U-G-E in Japan and in years to come, very big in the rest of Asia too. we were like swooning over Goro and hecking care SMAP & Kimura Takuya! madness!

why the long chunk of entry above on SMAP? it's all due to a repeating SMAP DVD ad for their recent concert in Toyko. reminded me of Goro, my curly-hair friend and those days when i was in Sec 3 & 4. i realised i miss those years the most of all my schooling years. the most. my afternoons after school are spent without fail at bedok or tampines interchange.

buying 3-4 bags of Mac large fries and sharing with friends. time spent at arcade centres. watching movies at tamp GV & century square. :) phone calls that stretch to hours and late into the night. i've the greatest bunch of friends then. though we drifted apart now, which is really sad...:(, i'm really glad we had fun back then.

ever wonder why do people get very close together for a period of time and started drifting apart after sometimes? i wonder that alot. all relationships are the same, all need effort and time. sometimes, people just drift apart and there's really nothing much one can do except for the occasional nostalgia moments like now. :(
im getting sad and i dont like this. let's move on!

Shaggy: Angel
"Girl, you're my angel, you're my darling angel
Closer than my peeps you are to me, baby
Shorty, you're my angel, you're my darling angel
Girl, you're my friend when I'm in need, lady"

whenever i heard this song, i think of my uni days. for (1) , it was really popular back in my uni year 1 days and (2) a certain ex sang the chorus part into my voicemail back then. i always associated him with my early uni days. those wild days before i met my dear dear, heh.

those days represented everything that i dont wish to repeat. let's just say i did certain things i aint too proud of and i let some people and myself down at times. sigh. not saying im a saint now, but the frequency of screw-ups then is atrocious! :P
anyway, it was through this song that i learnt the meaning of "peeps"! yup, at the age of 19. ha.

Daftpunk: One more time
"One more time
Music's got me feeling so free
We gonna celebrate
Celebrate and dance are free"

i can tell you here, this song is a stroke of genius. aside those memories attached to this song for me, this song itself is marvelous. i'm sure that if i listen to it like 20 years down the road, it'll still get my booty shaking!

lotsa memories with this song. heard it in a damn crowded pub in downtown tokyo. love it at first hearing. bought the cd first thing when i touched down in singaore then. the song made me cry for almost a good 6 months everytime i heard it in a club.
remember most vividly those days back in hall when my hall mates and i will just crank up the volume in our room and dance like no tomorrow. yes, only to this song. to the point that we can mesmorise the lyrics (aint too difficult since this song has limited lyrics, ha).

i miss hall days. my hall mates are a great bunch. they still are today. but i feel that i've drifted apart from them as well. partly my fault and partly due to working life. its getting harder to meet and my time after work is so limited given that i've to spread it between my dear dear, family, colleagues & other friends. meeting up with hall friends is getting virtually impossible. once or twice a month is considered really good!

i miss the time where i can just trugged back to hall and sleep the afteroon away after lectures. i miss those late nights chatted away. i miss buying breadtalk from jurong point and gawd, i even miss taking 179. my days in the hall were perfect. well, near-perfect, other than my frivolous ways which spoilt some relations and created some tensions along the way. bleh, i rather not reminiscence too much here!

one thing with bad memories, how do you all deal with it. supress them or simply forget them? me, i chose to learn from them and shiver in their presence.... ;p

Lifehouse: Take me away
"take me away
take me away
I've got nothing left to say
just take me away "

was listening to this song while waiting for my bus home yesterday. had a really busy & lousy day at work yesterday. received a farewell card & 2 chocolates in my pigeon hole from a colleague who just left the firm last friday. inside my pigeon hole lies another farewell card from another colleague who left last month. sigh, as i popped one chocolate in my mouth, i turned around to look for my peers to lament how sucky it is to stay in the firm when everyone is leaving (which means we are being left behind!).

to my immense sadness, i saw no familiar face around. my only colleague who is closer to me was down at client's place yesterday so i was quite alone in my office in the metaphorical sense. in the end, all i can do was popped another chocolate in my mouth and continue working till it's time to knock off. how sad.

and this song is totally so applicable when i heard it in the evening. (not entirely applicable, just the chorus. the song in entirety is very much about a guy needing a girl, ha.) i just want to get away from my current job. its making me way too depressed for my liking.

so take me away.

p/s: Lifehouse lead singer's voice has the best soft rock quality to it. anyone who heard "hanging by a moment" by him will totally agree with me. and one can never guess he look like he belongs to a boy-band! dont believe me? see for yourself!


U2: Walk on
"Leave it behind
You've got to leave it behind
All that you fashion
All that you make
All that you build
All that you break
All that you measure
All that you steal
All this you can leave behind
All that you reason
All that you sense
All that you speak
All you dress up
All that you scheme..."

I love bono. cos he's a darn good song-writer. his voice is so full of soul & depth. he's an activitist for many worthy causes. and i love this song.

it made me bought their album (which has fabulous songs like walk on, beautiful day, elevation etc) in my uni 2nd year. i remember sitting at the cafe at jurong point interchange raving about the meaning of U2's lyrics to my dear dear (not my boyfriend yet then). i mistook his nonchalence as polite listening. man, was i wrong?! till today, dear dear still doesnt share the passion i have for songs, movies and other things alike. but for these areas where our mind have problems meeting, we do compliment each other in other areas. ha.

this song inspires me alot. i feel that no matter what difficulties or problems we face in our life, we are all equipped with the ability to walk on. so walk on we should. :)

it's been a disgustingly long entry! i'll be shocked if anyone can read through the whole thing. dont think thats possible. ha. i've to hit the sack!! its 12+ already!

im a spendthrift

yes, im a spendthrift. forget whatever i said in the previous post regarding financial woes. i spent tons of money this weekend!! let's see what i bought:

1) Derma-Rx toner $35 (i like the light cucumber scent)
2) Derma-Rx Comedone Formula $60 (great for whiteheads & blackheads! no kidding, it really works!)
3) Derma-Rx sunblock PA30+ $50 (though i don't really like the sticky texture, but it's my 2nd tube and it works for me, so stick to it, i will!)
4) Chanel moisturiser $102 (this is the killer. why is chanel products so expensive?! but i love its products!) been using this for the past 2 days and i love its texture! its gel-like and easily absorbed by my skin. it promised to boost blood circulation and provide hydration to the skin, bringing maximum radiance! :) let's hope it works!

all these skincare set me back around $250!! sigh, but a skincare set normally lasted 6-8 mths for me so i guess, its not too ex if you consider that you use them on a daily basis and they help in maintaining/improving my skin!!

went to the IT show at Suntec today with dear dear. the crowd is maddening over there. i've problem getting to suntec from citylink! sooooo many people!

again, we spent tons at the IT show. so we bought:
1) a MP3 player for me! considering the journey i need to travel to & fro my new workplace coming late march, i really feel i need some music on the go. I've always wanted a receiver since uni days but does anyone still go for a receiver nowadays? lol!
not willing to spend too much money and wanting only a simple MP3 player (512mb) which have FM functions and able to direct-charge from PC, i went around searching for the ideal one. big names like apple, creative & samsung alike is too expensive for moi!

in the end, i settled for an unknown brand ("epraizer" costing $129) who has what i need and within my budget! it came with an additional set of earphone from sennheiser! im happy with that! after subsidizing from ah long, i paid $100 for it. not exactly very cheap but wil do for me!

2) Philips Plasma TV 42"
yes, im not joking. we bought a plasma TV at the IT show. we had long decided that this model is the one for our new house. it was plain luck that we chanced upon this harvey norman promotion in the IT show that allows us to get it for a mere $3199 (original price:$3999!) and allow delivery to be done in mid-june (renovation for our house will only be completed near then)!
so we got this today!

of cos, we used good o'trusty citibank 0% installment plan (6 months plan). we are simply not cash-rich now. :P
i can't wait for this baby to be delivered and installed in my house by June! for those un-informed, im a tv junkie! i can sit in front of the tube for extended period!

3) philips cordless phone at only $49! this promotion is only available for those who bought plasma/LCD which are bigger than 37". i love all philips & panasonic cordless phones! they have the least static noise! the model im getting costs around $80 normally, so im really pleased with my buy. but the only problem is, im only getting the phone with the plasma in June. bleh.
in short, it has been an expensive weekend. i need to lie low with expenditure for the next 2 weeks at least. *pout*

i'm not in a good mood.
1) im having a runny nose and sore throat.
2) my voice is strained and raspy
3) im on MC today but im still doing work at home
4) my manager called me no less than 3 times today. wtf.

arg! i just want to recover soon!

my financial status is very bad. though im not in the red (almost impossible since today is only the 8th!) but im nearly there. and it doesn't help that march is gonna be a short month for me. i'm only serving till the 21st in my current company and starting in my new position late this month. i can foresee cash flow problem coming up! *help*

anyway, i've a fun saturday last weekend. me and the usual gang went waraku at marina square to celebrate gb's bday! though i was already sick then, i enjoyed myself regardless.

here are some pictures!

its full attendance! very rare!

me & the birthday boy!

me and mad D!

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p/s: i still feel bouts of depression at times. sigh, i really hope i'm able to overcome it, not contain it.

no luck? or no popularity?

been having not much luck with my popularity recently. no one responded much to my invitation to cambodia/HK in my last entry. i've to sms some of my friends to wring out an answer. and even so, only 3 out of 8 replied. 2 saying no. how sad.

and i invited my whole team to come to look for me for lunch today at another client's location. guess what? only 2 out of 11 replied!!!!!! what the...!? am i on my way to becoming the next daniel!!!??? NOOOOOOOOOOOOO.......! that shall not happen! *frantically assuring myself*

on another note, been having mini nightmares about moving on to a new workplace. not really nightmares like those you dream per se. but more like little psychological struggles within me. i kept having the temptation to take back my resignation letter! what is wrong with me? being unpopular and so undecisive. so decidingly NOT-me. *sigh* im afraid of change. :( though upset with my current work conditions, i've grown accustomed to it. i rather face the same shit than risk bigger shit.

hmm...i know the above attitude is wrong and one should always attempt to try new but moving on means committment for the next 2 years at least. completely different from like exploring new travel destinations. bah!

good news: i'm gonna have my first fitting come end march. *excited*

i want a holiday!

i'm thinking of a short holiday to either cambodia or hong kong between 22nd - 26th March.
any takers?

anyway, for those clueless, i've tendered my resignation! i'll be starting my new position near end of march. hence, all the more i need a holiday!
moving on to the commercial world, annual leave is pathetic and little. not like my current job where i got to enjoy endless overtime leave.
*sigh* you win some, lose some.

sometimes, i find myself reconsidering my decision to leave. is it the right choice?
i need to discuss more with others to make myself more convinced of my decision.

anyway, i'm looking forward to this saturday! should be heading to zouk with my dear friends! its been TOO LONG! :)

had a fever yesterday night and spent most of today feeling terrible in my bed. luckily, i feel much better now. hopefully, i'll recover fully in time for this saturday! :)

for those who may not know yet, i've cut my hair! now i look like this:

anyway stop asking me why im cutting my hair when im getting married this year! the wedding is still a good 7 months away and i'm sure my hair will grow longer by then. also, i like myself in short hair. period.

i've a good weekend with dear dear. felt like we are out on a date once again. :)
though we didn't do much but just roam around orchard before settling for dinner at crystal jade. anyway, crystal jade queue is atrocious! singaporeans visit crystal jade like its just another mac! ridiculous!


at my house before we set off!



i love xiao long baO!
oh yah, we found a birthday bear whose date falls on our wedding date (25th Sept)! ah long was reluctant to buy it as usual, though it only costs $1.20! i got it myself in the end and made him take a picture with it. ha.


sunday was spent lazing at his house playing with that favourite baby of mine! but he doesn't smile as much when with me. bleh~


we went to our house to take a look again. its been nearly 1 month since i last went up!
here's some pictures for those who are interested.

master bedroom

master bedroom toilet

our living room

our dining area & foyer

our kitchen!

i can't wait for renovation to start soon! but deciding on a contractor can be a troublesome and time-consuming process. let's crossed our fingers and hope renovation will start by end March!

brokeback mountain

i'm in love with Jake Gyllenhall. :)
he was cute in "jarhead". he was cuter in "broke back".

in jarhead

jack! (right)

but i must admit, it was heath ledger who steal the show in brokeback. he was simply marvellous. he made me teared during the show, especially in the last scene of the show. *sigh* i want them to be together!

everyone out there, pls try to catch brokeback! it was really good. i was so moved by the love between them in the show. the notion "homosexuality" never ever crossed my mind once. it was just love.

alot of people love to argue with me that "hey, this is just a gay show!". but they are missing the whole point. they are just denying themselves of the chance to catch a superd show that really test one's definition of love.

like what one of the character's said during an interview:
"brokeback mountain is a place one doesn't have to live up to anyone's expectations or care about other's opinions.
everyone has their own brokeback mountain somewhere.
so if you bring someone to your own brokeback mountain and realise you still love him despite everything.
you do truly love him."

i would really love to watch the show again. that's all i know.

i love this baby!

how can you not?!

am i ready....

to start a new chapter in my (working) life?

after 2 and a half years in my current company, i'm suddenly faced with 2 new job offers. well, not suddenly but a result of nearly 2 months of mad frenzy of sending resumes, going for a handful of interviews and praying madly to get an offer. and finally, here they are.

and then.... i feel lost.

what an idiot. 2 questions to answer. which should i take up? should i leave my current firm?

1) which should i take up?
i know the sequence of questions is wrong but i really want to weigh the 2 options and try to visualise where will each one take me to.
after talking to numerous people (6 no less!) today, the fog started to clear a little. i guess i sorta know what i want, but i just need more assurance.
2) should i leave my current firm?
i guess the answer is quite obvious. i'm leaving.

or maybe not. sigh.
I'll miss the late office hours, the flexibility, the long leave, the pay prospects. but everything that is also good about the job is slowly leaving me the longer i stay on. my friends, job satisfaction, happiness. :(

i'll have to give both of them an answer by tomorrow. i guess 船到桥头自然直。whichever decision i make, i hope i've the strength to make it through. at least for 2-3 years before i start looking out for new positions again. ha.

some things never change. i love interviews! sick huh? :p

our 4th year anniversary!

12th feb 2006. yup, we have been together for 4 years!

it's great that we've fun yesterday as we've been planning for this day for weeks! thanks to credit card reward points, we were able to book a night at conrad for only 160 bucks nett. the room will cost us ard $300+ originally for a night! madness!

so we checked in at 1.30pm (earlier than the stated check-in time of 2pm, being kiasu singaporeans)! i love the hotel. some said its 5 stars, some even claimed it to be a 6. whatever, i love the place regardless! it was the most luxurious hotel i ever stayed in my entire life. we've a huge classic room on the 21st floor with great view (facing suntec & river), huge bathtub with complementary bath salts, bathrobes, super comfy bed, body moisturiser inclusive even! i love to stay in the room forever!

i love our room. cosy!

bathed & ready to go!


dear dear and me!

we set off to do some shopping at orchard. we tried the ice cream from gelatissimo at shaw centre. i love the texture! it's almost like those gelato i tasted at italy! but taste-wise, i find them a little thin. aint as sweet as bravissimo. but yummy nevertheless!

we tried tiramisu & veronese (actually it tasted like rocher) chocolate!

after, its shop shop shop for us! yes, US! even ah long bought a polo tee, a shirt and socks! wow, impressive for someone whom i'm accountable for half of his wardrobe. ha.
myself? i've been deprived for too long! my last clothing was bought during my sunway lagoon trip (remember? eons ago!) in mid-dec 2005!
in the end, i bought 2 pairs of shoes and ah long get me a top! :)

i love the green one especially. i hope they don't give me blisters! (crossed fingers)

i love black & pearls. perfect!

dinner time! again, with the help of credit card reward points, we got ourselves $50 voucher for menotti (at raffles city)!
dinner was good. i especially love their lagsane & warm chocolate cake. i love the way they keep the lagsane wet and generous with the cheese and meat bits in EVERY single layers! i prefer their cake over bakers inn's one too. theirs is different in that the chocolate doesn't ooze out. but the taste is really good! *yummy*

bb with his linguine with lobster meat

me & my fav lagsane!

ooh....warm chocolate cake!

we take a slow walk back to our hotel after dinner. the area at marina square & esplanade is lovely in the evening! we lazed around more in our room till 9pm and then it's movie time! we went to catch "jarhead" at marina GV! the show was alright, definitely better than "walk the line". it has its funny moments, but sam mendes failed to reach me the way he did with "american beauty". sigh, i want a good film! will "brokeback" this coming thursday be the answer?

we dropped by Pan Pac on our way back to hotel after the show. i live the louge ambience there! they have lovely decors, strings of lanterns. for the festive, perhaps?

nice!

woke up early this morning for our complimentary buffet breakfast at oscar's! i really feel like a goddamn tourist, ha! anyway, was greeted by this lovely view!


:) breakfast was fabulous. They served charwanmushi! fresh milk, tons of fruits, congee with pork floss, siew mai, waffles with nutella! okie, im easy to please.


okie, then it's back to civilisation for us. heh. though today IS the actual day for our 4th year anniversary, we felt beaten out. after checking out at 2pm today, we left for my home and napped most of the afternoon away. ha~

on the MRT. look! he's smiling! he enjoyed himself apparantly!

i hope everyone has themselves a great weekend too! later.....!

i can't believe it....

yes, i can't believe it. that I've been with him for 4 years already. technically, 4 years this coming sunday.
yup with this man.



















he may not be the ideal boyfriend to some. heck, he's not my ideal boyfriend even. but, deep down, i know he's the best i can ever get.
he doesn't believe much in buying me flowers, nor springing me surprises. that's not to say he never do such things, just seldom.
he believes in making sure that i eat my meals properly. he believes in making me a better person. though that sometimes lead to arguments between us. lol~

i've my doubts about the relationship, before. especially during our first year together and when we both started working. i've wanted to give up on him and the relationship many times before. though many of my friends would say its all due to my own 钻牛角尖。but i stuck on, again and again. (well, you can say he stuck on to too. :P) why? many reasons.

the hardest period was when we both started working. so little time together and so much insecurity, mostly from me. he compromised a lot. he still does, now. i appreciate him for this.

my best and worst holidays was the same. europe (italy+france) trip in summer 2004. best because it was italy. worst because i've never been so sick before in all my overseas trips. i still remember, it was a sunday at disneyland. i was down with fever and threw up my dinner the night before. he advised me against the disneyland trip. but stubborne me insisted on it. i've fun that day (well, half of it). by 5pm, i ccould take it no more. i puked again and i felt like shit. in the end, i slept on his lap for 2 hours. and he just sat there, taking care of me the whole time. i remembered me thinking to myself then, i think he's someone who can take care of me. i think i can entrust myself in his care. and ever since, this memory always make me think twice when i was about to give up on the relationship.

and we look alike. umm.. at least i think so. ha

he makes me feel loved. everyday. from his simple messages to when he reaches for my hand if i ever walk a little further from him. that's why i'm still with this man.
yup, this man.


who'll do anything (well, almost anything...) to make me happy. he drew me the most horrible birthday cards ever. he accompanied me to overseas trips (un)willingly. he accompanied me to watch a lot of movies which he walked out with a huge scowl on his face (the latest being "walk the line"). he put up with my problem with puntuality (every)sometimes. he bought me little snacks (be it hello panda or jack n jill chips) whenever i pop over his place to stayover.

of cos, there is always room for improvement. he can learn to be more sensitive, less nonchalent, more romantic, less stingy, more accepting, less nagging, oh whatever. oh, he definitely can learn to smile more in photos!

no kidding. this is his normal expression. like the whole world owe him a freaking dollar.

but im happy with this man, still. so i guess you guys will still be seeing him around me. :)

okie, back to tomorrow. we are gonna celebrating our 4th year anniversary! it's gonna be the last time we are celebrating 12th Feb. next year onwards, there's gonna be only one date for anniversaries - 25th Sept! so we are gonna have fun on 12th Feb 2005. we are going to stay at conrad for a night tomorrow and count down to our anniversary! lol~ sound mad.

will post pictures of tomorrow soon!

incoherent blabbering

my love/hate relationship with blackjack
i love blackjack.
when im playing with my large extended family. there is always so much laughter and fun. though my uncles' booming voices often deafen me. when i win money, of cos.
i hate blackjack.
when i lose money. period . ha.

CNY dinner with my colleagues
we went to that steamboat restaurant (can't remember name) at suntec there. the food was horrible and variety of food limited.
luckily i've fun company to make the dinner bearable.
here they are!


my stay at conrad
im going to stay at conrad this saturday! so happy!
i hope i'll have a fun time there with dear dear!

back to work for me. sigh, peak is not yet over!

my not-so-exciting CNY!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ALL OF YOU!

its been a good break for me for the past 5 days. but as usual, good times pass too fast and its back to working for me tomorrow once again. bleh, what a letdown.

anyway, i've fun for this chinese new year. my time was all mainly spent at my house, ah long's house and my gramps. still, i managed to catch 2 movies, won some money (little bit which i spent on cab mostly, ha) in gambling and received more ang pow money than last year.

ang pow money: they came in handy! i've insurance premium (half-yearly) to pay this month end so there goes my ang pow money. this will be the last year i can receive ang pow. :( supposedly, we dont have to give out any during our first year of marriage next year but my relatives are hearing none of it. so there, dear dear and me are gonna be broke next year!

movies: i caught "fearless" & "memoirs of geisha" this new year.

everyone out there, please watch "fearless"! its fantastic! jet li really shows the world the real deal about chinese martial arts! worth 11/10!
memoir of geisha is just too draggy, too much weird translated analogies thrown around. in short, i wont recommend anyone to watch the film unless you really love to see zhang ziyi dances around madly.

okie, i just want to say i love movies and i want to catch the following films this new year (not in order):
1) Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead man's chest
2) V for Vendetta
3) The Da Vinci Code
4) Sin City 2
5) X-Men 3
6) Jarhead
7) Brokeback Mountain
8) Walk the line
9) Munich

night, folks!

longggggg weekend for moi!

yippee yay yay! im officially in holiday mood! no work for me from 27th all the way to 31st! 5 freaking long daysssss!

hmm..but i hardly feel that its CNY now. more of like a short break for me. This is like the first year in my entire life where i didn't even get a single piece of new clothing for the new year! felt so weird. but im not too bothered with it.

sigh. i thought i had slowly gotten out of my depressed state. i guess not. im still kinda stuck in a rut. i really hope i'll be happier.

anyway, my interview this morning sucks BIG time! why must the interviewer be so hard on me!? hmm, blame it on my own lack of technical knowledge. whatever. guess im doomed to stay on in my firm in the near future at least.

i've got my keys!

yippee yay! finally i got my keys to my new house yesterday!
dear dear and i went to HDB hub around noon to settle the admin. you wouldn't believe the admin nonsense one has to go through before getting those keys (yay, a bunch of them. 24 in all!). we've to get fire insurance, home protection insurance etc. and there are so many documents to be signed (deed title, loan agreement etc), i'm sure we've signed off around 20+ times each! *admin madness*

and i realised im a true blue government pet. i signed off every document without batting an eyelid (ie, without checking at all). lol~ before long, the HDB stuff was asking us what is the loan period and mode of payment that we want. so when she click here click there on the green screen, i suddenly realised i've not a single cent left in my CPF! all 18k+ of them gone in a blinking of an eye! and dear dear and me are committed to pay the housing loan with our CPF for the next 25 years! *gasp* suddenly it dawned on me that continue working (till 49 at least) is the only way for me to pay my share. if i ever stop working, we've to top my portion with cash and i'll have no savings when i retired! the other way is for dear dear to earn more and pay for my portion. but easier said than done *sobz* there goes my tai tai lifestyle. bleh~

whatever. we brought mum up to our new place to take a peek. it looked incredibly small! and we thought our 4-room is supposedly bigger than the old design, since it stands at 100sqm. the kitchen and master is ridiculous. i can go from one end to another by a few leaps! everyone told us that after renovation and painting, the place will look more spacious and all. let's cross our fingers and hope thats really the case.

will post some pictures of my house when i'm free!

work is as blah as ever. no mood to talk about it. lets just hope im lucky in my interview coming thursday. then i can say bye-bye forever to my current job!

i hate working on weekends!

i worked from 12-6 today. :( today is a saturday. and i've to go back to work tomorrow too! i hate working over the weekends! the crowd thronging through orchard looked so happy!

on a happy note, i caught "elizabethtown" today! was really having a tough time deciding between "in her shoes" and this show. in the end, my colleagues dissuaded me from "in her shoes" since both of them caught it and dismissed it as "nothing fantastic". so i went for "elizabethtown" in the end.
it aint too bad. i like the plot but i think the show would be better if the actor and actress are not orlando and kristen dunst. and it boosts one of the best soundtracks for the year (umm...include 2005 as well).

ona happier note, bb is coming back tomorrow night! he just called me from NYC-JFK airport that he's boarding the flight in an hour time! ":) tomorrow night this time, i'll be with him! i'm over the moon!

i cant stop listening to jay's 发如雪。 the lyrics is so pretty!

髮如雪
Composer: 周杰倫 Lyricist: 方文山
狼牙月 伊人憔悴
我舉杯 飲盡了風雪
是誰打翻前世櫃 惹塵埃是非
緣字訣 幾番輪迴

i妳鎖眉 哭紅顏喚不回
縱然青史已經成灰 我愛不滅

繁華如三千東流水
我只取一瓢愛了解
只戀妳化身的蝶

妳髮如雪 淒美了離別
我焚香感動了誰
邀明月 讓回憶皎潔
愛在月光下完美

妳髮如 紛飛了眼淚
我等待蒼老了誰
紅塵醉 微醺的歲月
我用無悔 刻永世愛妳的碑

啦兒啦 啦兒啦 啦兒啦兒啦
啦兒啦 啦兒啦 啦兒啦兒啊
銅鏡映無邪 紮馬尾
妳若撒野 今生我把酒奉陪

okie, i shall work for 4 hours at most tomorrow! looking forward to tomorrow!! cos bb will be back!

happy holiday!

hullo everyone, happy holiday! its been raining non-stop these few days and everywhere is damn cold! brr~ my room feels air-conditioned even when i didn't even switch on the fan! 这雨让人好累！

anyway, dear dear has arrived safely at washington! really happy to receive his calls yesterday! the time zone difference still requires some adjusting though. like its 1 pm at my side now but its 12 midnight over at his side! so technically, i'm well into tuesday already but his monday just ended. ha. whatever, i hope he stays warm and safe over there. and come back soon!!

i miss you. *sobz*

i'm going to accompany mummy dearest for some shopping later. perhaps i can grab some clothes for chinese new year myself! but i'm really broke this month. maybe i wont buy any new clothings at all since there are a few dresses in my wardrobe that i've only worn once. i shall recycle them for CNY. :p sounds pathetic! i need cash!! any sponsors out there!?

sigh. i shall wait for my jan pay to come in soon so that i can pay my credit card bills. can life be any sadder than this? on a happier note, i'm feeling a little happier now. still get a little depressed now and then but i'll live. 做人要尽量让自己开心一点！

a little depressed..

feeling a little depressed this week. now trying hard to get out of my depressed state. dear dear has been very supportive of me and he had been trying hard to cheer me out of it. i'm really trying hard to move on and be positive. let's hope everything will be better and i'll be happy again.

dear dear will not be by my side for this week. his company has sent him to USA for work. just sent him off at the airport just now. poor him, the flight duration to and back is gonna be long. and given the lousy weather now, i'm a little worried for him. hope he'll have a safe journey to there and back to me soon.

weekend comes and goes. but i dont really care. jan has never been my favourite month since i joined my firm. the faster jan is over, the better. furthermore i really need time and energy now to handle my stuff.

*sigh* i just want tomorrow to be better and that i'll be happy again.

resolutions for 2006!

i'll jump straight to the point!

1) same as last year, to drink lotsa water even if i don't feel thristy. even if my skin doesn't appear hydrated, i'm still gonna do it! water is good for health!
2) i'll try to exercise in this coming this year at least once a week! i'll start this wed! 加油！healthy living, here i come!
3) try my best to work with dear dear to make the preparations for my wedding as smooth as possible and to build our lovenest up!
4) to put in more effort to spend time with my family. having said that, it doesnt mean that im an infilial daughter/bad sister. just that more patience and time shall be given by me to my family this year and in the future!
5) to travel to new places! greece, turkey, cambodia, beijing etc, here i come!
6) to get a new job by end of the year LATEST that pays relatively well and has reasonably well job prospects. audit is a bad industry to stay in for too long. your friends start to leave and you get lonely. not to mention the stress and work level that increase exponentially!

okie, just the above. short and sweet! and above all, achievable. :)

Goodbye 2005.....~

2005 really flew past in a flash! inspired by shirley's blog, i'll do a brief summary of my 2005 chronologically. ha~
Jan: peak period for me. really worked my ass off (contrary to popular belief that i'm a slacker). hey! i did work till 1 am before okie!
had my first brazilian wax...all i can say is *ouch*. not to mentioned pricey too! it's around $80 for a session at Visage.
Feb: it's chinese new year! i had fun for 2005 CNY, hanging out with my cousins and all on 初一。i even chill out with my 2 表弟s on 除夕夜 till the wee hours! been ages since we last did that!
it's also dear dear and my 3rd year anniversary on the 12th! i can still remember, we've fun at clarke quay that night.
Mar: i got my wisdom tooth extracted! *pain* costs me a hundred and made me went through a week of pain and no intake of some of my favourite food. Bleh~
i applied for ICPAS, a progession step on my career path. ha, sound terribly professional and important.
Apr: worst month. nothing spectacular happened this montH!
May: off to China with fiona & chee yong as mentioned in previous posts. also meaning to say the start of my month long leave. wahhah.
June: off to korea with mummy dearest and brother. meaning to say end of month long leave. *sobz*
July: attended the ICPAS one-week long course and took its exams on the last day of the course.
off to BKK with ah long! i lurve the place! food and shoopping!
Aug: notified by ICPAS that I've passed the course! officially a provisional CPA member. by sept 2006, i'll be an actual CPA member (i still lacked the experience). *woohoo*
attended womad and ah long proposed to me on the 27th. :)
Sept: we balloted for the new flats at Bukit Merah (opp. redhill mrt). were really keping our fingers crossed, hoping that priority will be given to us since we are first timers applying for HDB and the fact that resale flats are so much more expensive and we love the location!
Oct: was busy with planning for our wedding the whole month! all weekends were burned from visiting bridal boutiques and photography studios. in the end, we finally decided on our bridal boutique, photograhers and banquet venue! oh, this blog was started in Oct too!
Nov: Balloting results was out! we got shortlisted!
signed up for exotic dance with candice, tanny and grace! had tons of fun so far! i really hope to advance to exotic module 2 but got to assess my financial position again..
Dec: went to bintan with colleagues and sunway lagoon with dear dear.
went to select our unit and was notified that we'll be collecting the keys end-jan! got to start planning on renovations now!
it's xmas! had crazy fun with my peeps!
it's my birthday! last day of the month too. how irritating! when everyone loves to celebrate the end of my birthday. bleh~
my birthday is so special, it deserves another paragraph by itself!

my birthday
dear dear stayed over at my house the night before my birthday. so when the time past 12, i made him sing happy birthday to me! haha.

dear dear & me setting off from my house!
the next day (31st dec!), we went to suntec and just had fun walking around. we visited harvey norman to check out pricing on electrical appliances. ha, what a way to spend my birthday huh?
after that, dear dear bought me to eat at ichiban boshi at suntec! i love salmon sashimi! *yummy*

i love sushi!
we loiter around raffles city after dinner. specifically robinson to check out mattress, kitchen appliances etc. umm....very not happening hor? lol~
near eleven, we went up raffles the plaza to find suling and her friends. they rented a room for the night so we can watch fireworks in comfort!

me and suling

fireworks!~ awwwww.....

looking back, 2005 aint too bad after all. i've been to some places and enjoyed myself thoroughly in more than a few occasions.
more 'ups' than 'downs' with my dear dear for this year. really glad that we are getting more stable (i used to detest a relationship that enter a "stable" phrase for i associate stability with mundane, routine activities. but now i feel that stability come about when more faith and trust are put in a relationship. with that, i'm more accepting with the word "stable" being used on us. ha!) as we are about to proceed to another stage of our lives together later this year!
my family, friends and all my close one (including myself) are all healthy and doing fine. i guess that's something i should be really thankful about!

okie, i guess im ready to welcome 2006! may it be a better year for everyone and myself!