i can't believe it....

yes, i can't believe it. that I've been with him for 4 years already. technically, 4 years this coming sunday.
yup with this man.



















he may not be the ideal boyfriend to some. heck, he's not my ideal boyfriend even. but, deep down, i know he's the best i can ever get.
he doesn't believe much in buying me flowers, nor springing me surprises. that's not to say he never do such things, just seldom.
he believes in making sure that i eat my meals properly. he believes in making me a better person. though that sometimes lead to arguments between us. lol~

i've my doubts about the relationship, before. especially during our first year together and when we both started working. i've wanted to give up on him and the relationship many times before. though many of my friends would say its all due to my own 钻牛角尖。but i stuck on, again and again. (well, you can say he stuck on to too. :P) why? many reasons.

the hardest period was when we both started working. so little time together and so much insecurity, mostly from me. he compromised a lot. he still does, now. i appreciate him for this.

my best and worst holidays was the same. europe (italy+france) trip in summer 2004. best because it was italy. worst because i've never been so sick before in all my overseas trips. i still remember, it was a sunday at disneyland. i was down with fever and threw up my dinner the night before. he advised me against the disneyland trip. but stubborne me insisted on it. i've fun that day (well, half of it). by 5pm, i ccould take it no more. i puked again and i felt like shit. in the end, i slept on his lap for 2 hours. and he just sat there, taking care of me the whole time. i remembered me thinking to myself then, i think he's someone who can take care of me. i think i can entrust myself in his care. and ever since, this memory always make me think twice when i was about to give up on the relationship.

and we look alike. umm.. at least i think so. ha

he makes me feel loved. everyday. from his simple messages to when he reaches for my hand if i ever walk a little further from him. that's why i'm still with this man.
yup, this man.


who'll do anything (well, almost anything...) to make me happy. he drew me the most horrible birthday cards ever. he accompanied me to overseas trips (un)willingly. he accompanied me to watch a lot of movies which he walked out with a huge scowl on his face (the latest being "walk the line"). he put up with my problem with puntuality (every)sometimes. he bought me little snacks (be it hello panda or jack n jill chips) whenever i pop over his place to stayover.

of cos, there is always room for improvement. he can learn to be more sensitive, less nonchalent, more romantic, less stingy, more accepting, less nagging, oh whatever. oh, he definitely can learn to smile more in photos!

no kidding. this is his normal expression. like the whole world owe him a freaking dollar.

but im happy with this man, still. so i guess you guys will still be seeing him around me. :)

okie, back to tomorrow. we are gonna celebrating our 4th year anniversary! it's gonna be the last time we are celebrating 12th Feb. next year onwards, there's gonna be only one date for anniversaries - 25th Sept! so we are gonna have fun on 12th Feb 2005. we are going to stay at conrad for a night tomorrow and count down to our anniversary! lol~ sound mad.

will post pictures of tomorrow soon!