虚惊一场。。。

在半夜。

至少多两个礼拜吧。

！！！

沮丧。低潮期似乎又开始了。
我好累了。一年真的只能承受那麽多的不开心。


突然，觉得世界很大。但只有我一人。
没有人理解我。
没有人在乎我。


很喘。氧气很少很稀薄。
我不想再头晕目眩。
我不想再不知所措。


我有点小恨现在的生活方式与步伐。
虽然明明很清楚这只是短暂的。
但真的很烦，很腻。


更糟的是，身边的人与事只会加油添醋。
有没有再烦一点？！
不要再叫我做我没有兴趣的事了。
不要再问我无聊敷衍的事了。
真的，请多查颜观变多一点，好不？！

不知所谓的一堆话。
从沮丧-〉无助-〉不满-〉烦到-〉愤怒。
我有够善变吧？
总之，我决定在范围内改善自己的心情。

好吧，就从很久没见的老友鬼鬼开始吧!
希望心情能漂亮回！

one year anniversary (the real thing)

FINALLY, its 25th sept 2007 = ah long+me married for a year! though we've nothing really fanciful lined up for the occasion, im really glad for the day.
any reason to take leave is good! lolz.
it feels good to wake up on a tuesday morning without the need to go to work! :)

ah long+ me woke up and have a light breakfast for we want to leave room for our lunchie! we've make reservations at Lawry's @ the paragon! :)

ah long+ me all ready to leave the house!

cant resist taking a 恐怖大头照of myself. ha. realise i got 斗鸡眼，closed up. ha.

reached lawry's in good time and we made our orders soon.

our starters - tomato soup!

ah long and his main course - chef cut beef. a little too raw, if you ask me.

our yummy desserts! i like the chrysanthemum cream brulee!

overall, i found the lunch quite okie, though ah long thought the quality could be better. i guess i can agree with him.

after that, we made our way to The Cathay to catch a show - Azur et Asmar. ha, im sure none of you has heard of this film. its screening at the picturehouse at The Cathay only. its an animated film fest show by the way. we were planning to buy the tickets using UOB card for that entitled us to 12% discount off the ticket prices. but imagine our surprise, when the ticketing officer told us that there is a one-for-one promotion today for the show. so that means $6.50 for 2 tickets. lolz.

anyway, the show was surprisingly good. with some inspirational messages on "respect, tolerance, prejudice and open-mindedness". can check out its review here:

http://imdb.com/title/tt0439123/

waiting for the show to start @ The Cathay...

which is a ghost town by the way. there's really nothing much to shop around here. and its so sad to see so many rental spaces still NOT yet occupied. the place gonna be forgotten soon, if you ask me.

after the show, im tired out as usual. so hubbi drove us home and im now resting at home. still not sure where to go for dinner later. meantime, getting grouchy for wednesday (working day) is approaching sooN! bleh.

okie, later.

MJ+cookie day!

, maits MJ day for me again on sunday! been craving for a good MJ session but its really hard to get 4 young working adults to have a good session really. likewise, sunday's one was a really short one, lasting all of a 5 hours only. still, good enough for me.

lady luck not with me this time round though. irritating zm is the big winner, with all of us losing $ to him! bah!

ah long came to fetch me at 6+ and since we were in the east side (which is quite rare), we decided to explore east coast road where good food is rumored to reside. truly, there are a good selection of eatery outlets there from yong tau foo to jap restaurant etc.

so in the end, i gave in to my craving of the moment -- LAKSA! katong laksa no less! lolz.

yup, big t-shirt belong to ah long. lolz.

the laksa is good!! yummy! think i'll go back for more in the future if possible.

monday = no work for me for i took leave. *yippee*
while hubbi is away at work, i busied myself making cookies. yup, choco chip cookies! its been awhile since i last baked these, i almost forget what to do. and its really tough to do all the mixing & preparations alone. very tiring!

but i know the husband like to eat these, so strive on i did. after a gruelling 2 hours+, i finally managed to cook 2 batches (which is around 30+ cookies). and tiring myself out totally in the process.

the cookies before they got baked!

tada! done! do they look good?

went raffles city to meet ah long for dinner after his work. both of us feeling decidedly happy cos no work for us on tuesday! its our 1 year anniversary! time flies, cant believe its one year already! seems like yesterday when we had one of our most tiring day in our lives. :)

p/s: the husband likes the cookies. im glad!

1 year anniversary - Part 3 (or perhaps not)

falala! weekend is here again!
before we know it, its time to see bee bee again! really very glad to know that he's growing well. :) hubbi & me had mac brekkie, something which we havent done for a long time.
after which, we made our way to town to attend a seminar (WITHOUT JAZZY!). it feels strange to take public transport on a saturday but oh well, the seminar started from 12+ & jazzy can only see the light from 3pm onwards.


ah long & me @ the seminar. i dun know why he likes to close his eyes ever-so-often nowadays?

after that, we went vivo walk walk so i can collect my stash from make-up store!

TADA!


if only they are all MINE! lol, just kidding. Today is members' day where we get 20% off all products. so, my colleagues and friends have all visited the branch at vivo city during the week to reserve their pieces under my name.
of course, i bought some as well (how can i resist!). got myself a new eye pencil + blusher. cant wait to try them on tomorrow. heez.

we were supposed to be celebrating our 1 year- anniversary today. but im feeling so tired from all the activities above that im now home sweet home, resting.

anyway rented 2 DVDs - Ocean 13 & zodiac. tonight shall be DVD night! yippee. soon, we will be making our way out for dinner as well as grocery-shopping for monday when im supposed to whip up something for him. lolz. i guess this counts towards some celebration done, no?

okie, tired me out.

you know you are fat when...

your husband, when looking at your wedding portrait on the master bedroom wall, commented:" where did the apple of your cheeks disappear to?"

*blink blink*

he's lucky that he commented on his own saggy cheeks right after the above comment.

BAH!

pissed

i usually dont blog about unhappy thing but im feeling freaking frustrated now.
this is supposed to be a good week for me for boss from hell is away for almost the whole week! but NO! not around doesnt mean shit at work stops!

to 长话短说, i think im being stretched too thin in my current job! my portfolio seems to be more when compared to fellow colleagues.

so being lazy me, i cope by doing everything half-heartedly. just doing enough to get by. hence, earning no satisfaction whatsoever from what im doing. this sucks, really.

oh well, my plan is just to last till the next bonus. and april'08 is not really that far bah. too bad if they think my work is shit standard and my attitude less than desired. im just trying to protect myself from doing unnecessary/non-value adding work.

ciaoz. feeling much better after lamenting above. shall try to enjoy the rest of week from now on!

1 year anniversary - Part 2!

*warning - many photos ahead*

FINALLY! we got to use the hotel voucher for our 1-year anniversary! we were given 2 nights stay when we got married @ Pan Pacific last september but i converted one night to a voucher for anniversary purpose! :)

so on sat morning, we woke up bright & chirpy to do the usual - housework chores (bah!) and before long, we got ready to move out!

hubbi & i ready to move out!

but before that, i have a mini surprise for him! truth is, i got him a card for the occasion but he's supposed to find it based on clues left behind by me. but the husband is really clueless. only after prompting, then did he manage to find the card. *sigh*

the husband trying to decipher the clues based on notes left by me.

yup, he got the card!

we checked into the hotel soon and it feels just like yesterday as we were given a similar suite as our wedding suite. hotel stay always feel good, dont they!?
AND, look what they have! complimentary fruits & MARS choc bars! lolz. nothing big deal, but im a real BIG fan of MARS choc bars & they really turn out to be a nice surprise. :)

ah long lounging at the living area

the husband trying to act cute, as usual

us again!

i like the interior of Pan Pac!

waiting @ the lift lobby. okie, i know i look like a whale here. ha.
in the lift! nice view of the surrounding!

we went to shop around marina sq for the evening. happened to chance upon a gain city roadshow ard the centrestage area of marina sq, where a hourly special saw a 32" Panasonic LCD going at $1,088 (original px: $1,599) with $150 NTUC vouchers & $50 Robinson vouchers thrown in! we were really tempted to buy on the spot but rational us, talked ourselves out of it as we really dont need another tv in our master bedroom since we already have our plasma in the living room.

buying it would really be frivolous. but a good deal is hard to pass. esp, when delivery & set up is FREE. normally, best denki, harvey norman will charge a standard $20+ for such services. so after some phone calls, hubbi actually decided to buy it for his parents, spilting the cost with his brother & sister. i think it's a sweet move as my in-laws dinosaur CRT tv is a little cannot-make-it, ha. and really glad to see a good deal being taken up. :)

dinner was at ministry of food, a jap restaurant at centre stage that serves reasonably priced set meals that taste good too. i swear the yakiniku rice is better than that of waraku! and their desserts are yummy!

hubbi & i shared a yakiniku bento & a sukiyaki beef set meal
i esp. love the desserts!

after which we went walk walk around milenia walk (where all sorts of atas shops can be found there) and then to suntec. in short, i walked and walked till my legs almost fall off. *sobz* but, i bought myself a new skirt! happy! but i NEED it cos im expanding at an alarming rate. lolz.

finally, we made it to our suite in one piece but i was totally sloshed. we spent the night watching comedies showing on HBO & finally snoozed at 2+. very late for my standard! still, im glad of the stay as hubbi & i thoroughly enjoyed our stay there. :)

morning breakfast was continental style which i thought was only so-so. ha. we actually started missing our house after just 1 night away from it. so we checked out earlier before the required time of 1 pm! lolz. now im home sweet home and really, nothing beats lounging around your own couch in your PJs. heh.

can you spot the husband with his just-out-of-bed hair?

oh, truth is, our actual 1 year anniversary is on the 25th! lolz. as i said, we've programmes lined up for this month. now i cant wait for part 3, coming up next sat! but nothing fanciful. more to do with bee bee. bye for now!

EARTHQUAKES = SCARY!

was out with the girls having dinner @ waraku yesterday after work when the husband called to say there has been a 7.9 earthquake at sumatra and he can feel it back at our flat.
for a fleeting moment, i was deeply unsettled and asked him to make his way out of our unit. but hubbi stayed put and seemed to think it's okie.

then, waraku blacked out. not sure if its due to the quake but i got uneasy again. and the stuffy air inside didnt make things any better.

then then, this morning at 7.45am, while lazing at our bed i suddenly feel the bed shaking for like a good few seconds. and to my horror, i saw our hanging bedroom lamps swaying above me. :(

this is the 1st time im feeling the tremors of quake and its really not a good feeling. imagine those who is in the middle of the quake!

hmm, though this is just a small episode and perhaps to many others, nothing to raise a big hoo-haa over. but to me, just suddenly feel how fragile life is.
we should really appreaciate those around us and what we have.
so stop my nonsense, i should!

im in a i-hate-the-world mood today!

*roar* i wonder what rubbed me the WRONG way today! but im secretly pissed with EVERYTHING today.
maybe its the usual bad sleep i've yesterday.
maybe its cos i see the husband and reminded of how i want to pull his hair this morning
maybe its cos my stupid bus took a super long time to come.
maybe its cos today feel like a MONDAY after yesterday's break.
maybe its just a long overdue flare-up from me.

*ROAR*

whatever i hear/read/see make me irritated. i just want to crawl home, armed with a bag of chips, cold milk & the latest magazine. and NO ONE to bother me!

do you feel this way sometimes?
i definitely do! and today is one of those days! :(

1 year anniversary - part 1

september is a special month for hubbi+moi = 1 year anniversary! :) as mentioned earlier, we have planned a series of activities and today is one of them!
we went to see how's bee bee doing in the morning & then k-boxing away in the noon! :)

glad to learnt that bee bee is growing healthily though worrywart me still uncertain about his weight gain rate. hubbi wasn't too concerned for he trusted the "professional advice" alot. bleh.
anyway, i got all interested in newborns' weight and forced him to call my in-laws up to check up hubbi's weight when he's a newborn. im myself was a hefty 3.8kg and my mum secretly hated me for putting her through a long labour.
and GUESS what?! ah long is a horrifying 4.4kg newborn! i was mortified. 他也为免太大了吧!!
so what's your weight when you were a newborn? :)

k-ing away is always fun for me. i love to sing sing sing, no mind if i can hit the notes. it was fun in the beginning when i just sing my heart out & laughed non-stop at ah long's singing.
but irritating him got bored and wanted to cut short the session. i was pissed and he got pissed and we got into a row. *roar*

he can be super irritating at times! anyway, i got hungry and ate my fav. laksa at cuppage centre while he got himself the memory foam pillow that he wanted from john little at a good discount (i know, dont ask me why he's interested in a pillow.).
and we got happier and move on from the unhappy incident.

okie, let's see some rubbish photos taken in the k-box room! *lolz*




updated
(still pissed with him when i think back! he still claim the k-box session is planned specially for me! pui! if so, why cut it short?! think i will pull his hair when i see him tonight!)

spendthrift mum, 1408

there is actually perks when you've a vain & spendthrift mum. mummy actually bought me a Lancome lip gloss! lolz.
she gave it to me this noon when hubbi & i popped over for lunchie. heez, but im glad to have a new gloss! :)


ah long & me went plaza sing to catch "1408" in the late noon. it was more of me pushing him to catch it for horrors of all horrors, my husband is scared of scary movies! *gasp* lolz.
i still remember my last horror show with him. it was " 见鬼" and he was more scared than me. haha.

anyway, have read the book before (1408 was based on a short story by stephen king. can be found in the book "everything eventual") & sad to say, language is still a more effective medium in spreading fear than visuals.
i remember shaken by the book but the show only managed to get a few gasps from me at most.
still, john cusack is good. he's one of the more under-rated actors in hollywood to me. the man can act, albeit getting plumper over the years.

go catch it if you have not read the book. at least you wont be as disappointed as me.

lazy, crumpler & bird nest treat

my energy level is definitely getting low. totally dont feel like going out at all today. on a saturday, moreover! sooo unlike me.
and i plain refused to help out with any housework chores this morning. i just dont have the strength to do any. its a good thing hubbi didnt raise a racket. heh.
so poor him went on to iron clothes, vacumn/mop floor etc himself. he even made his own way to city hall to get a small dent out from our jazzy and ta-bao long john back for me. lolz.
thanks, bb! i really appreciate this!

finally, at 5+, i decide to move my ass and prepare to go out for some food + walk walk.

my wonderful hubbi + moi!

we went town again and spent some happy time browsing luxury/griffin goods! lolz. our obsession = watches & bags!!

anyway, i did NO shopping today. which is a good thing for i really need to lie low for this month. no thanks to the spending spree last mth. :P
the husband made himself happy though. he got himself a crumpler bag which he has been eyeing for the longest time. i chose the color for him.

see, nice?


after that, we went to my in-law house for some yummy bird nest again. *heez* this time round, the rock sugar is just enough. :)
okie, going to eat mooncakes!! on my way to becoming F-A-T! :P

im totally pooped!

just an hour or so walking around town has totally drained me.
damn. think before long, i can only make a beeline for home after work everyday & spend the weekend resting at home. bah!

soooo tired. i need a leg massage. should get the husband to give me one after his bath. need to prevent legs from cramping up!

anyway, we went to the taka mooncake fair after work today. not alot of selection, i feel. where is my marriott durian snow skin mooncakes?! hmph.
in the end, we bought a selection of mini snow skin mooncakes (8 pc) from Raffles the plaza. it consists of 4 flavours - champagne with choc truffles, rum & raisin with choc truffles, bailey choco + lychee dark choco. lolz. sound exotic hor?
not sure how the rest taste since we only sample the champagne one.

yawn. hot night = air con blasting in room. i goonna zzz sooN!!

you know you've a nonchalent husband when

he's totally unfazed/bo chup over what you said.
this is what went over msn just now:

ecookie: i very bored!
ecookie: feel like pulling your hair
ngchunleng: ok, tonight lor

or, maybe as he said last time. if he takes all my words seriously, he'll have gone mad already.

i've recovered! *ROAR*

now... time to enjoy my september! *yipeeyabadoo!*

sick again! after a hiatus of 3 1/2 months, my lousy immune system falls prey to the common cold. bah!
though im counting my blessings this is not something serious like a high fever/asthma relapse, its plain irritating nevertheless!
hopefully, the 2 days MC will help me recover and get me back on track!


just got wind this morning that my boss wont be around for nearly a good o'week somewhere this month. boy, am i glad by this piece of news.

september is really wonderful (other than my dreadful cold!)!

ratatouille, korean BBQ, sick (again!!)

the husband has made a mini windfall from his shares during the week. so irritating! while the one i'm holding on from his recommendation is really going nowhere but south. pui! lolz. whatever, i can only crossed my fingers and hope the dividends payout at year-end is gonna recuperate the paper loss. bleh.

still, he is sweet to organise an outing today for his parents and me. we are going to watch ratatouille & have a sumptious korean BBQ dinner!

hubbi & me before leaving the house

taking yet another shot in the car

we headed to The Cathay to meet my in-laws for the show. ratatouille is a really funny & heartwarming show though i may be harbouring too high a hope for it from all the rave reviews from papers to be overtly delighed by it.
still, i will recommend most people to catch it for its really a nice show with the right amount of heart.

hubbi has always wanted to bring us to tried some authentic korean BBQ but really finding one is not that simple. after doing some research online & asking around, we kinda narrowed down to 2. one in esplanade & one at east cost park.
despite me telling him the esplanade branch seems to enjoy a better food review & supposedly cheaper than the other one, the heatland him refuse to believe that.
pui. so in the end, he made a reservation at the east coast one and we arrived there promptly at ard 7 after the movie.

the decor is surprisingly bare & look like some normal family restaurant. stil, we were kinda comforted by the healthy crowd.
we ordered a mixed variety of meat, namely beef, chicken & pork. oh, and of cos the standard ginseng chicken soup.
when the food comes, i was decidedly excited. korean cuisine fanfare is such that the side dishes are ALOT. so much so that you got excited at trying out so many different type of food even though you'll realise soon that they are either just sour or spicy. lolz.

our many many side dishes

the good thing (at least to me) is the staff will cook for you. i cant stand cooking myself for i always managed to over-cook the meat, making it tough.

some of the meat is really nice, like the seasoned beef/pork. & i find the ginseng chicken meat really tender but the ginseng taste can be stronger. after all, i tried the real thing back at seoul with my mum.

when the bill comes, i really feel that the whole thing is OVERPRICED. true, the food is nice, but really not fantastic & we were actually paying ard $40+ per pax. if only we went to try out the other restaurant at esplanade. im sure even if the price comes up to ard the same or more, we'll be happier for the decor & ambience will surely be nicer than here?

anyway, by evening, im coming down with the sniffles & getting uncomfortable. so sianz. its been a good 3 1/2 months since i last got sick.

see, my nose getting red from me blowing my nose & eyes being bloodshot. not a pretty sight. bah!

but greedy me still suggested going to ben & jerry @ dempsey hill for desserts. so off we go! and we saw james lye, diana ser, ix shen & lee zhiqin there. lolz. not that it matters, really.

now finally back at home and with a worse than ever cold. *sob*
hopefully will recover by tomorrow. i hate being sick!!