~Bliss~ ~Bliss~ ~Bliss~ ~Bliss~: the weekend

hort park
finally ng family drove up to hort park to spend the morning there. a mad rush in the morning to prepare baby's breakfast - rice cereal+fruits purees. and then its off to buy the pappy+mammy's breakfast before heading off to the park. :)
very sunny and hot. but i must say the place looks nice and green. and the many themed "gardens" are interesting enough. but gimme air-con anytime! im just not that "green" a person. :P

corduroy cafe
met up with the girls for lunch on sunday. baby YZ was in the limelight for a good half of our time there at least! LOL. and he showed his true self. the suspicious, non-smiling baby he is. hehe.
anyway, finally has the chance to try the food at corduroy cafe and sadly, kinda over-rated. but the ambience is good there. especially on a sunday late morn/early noon. quiet and suitable for family, friends and couples alike.

taken before going to the cafe

baby has this “暗笑" look

al dente @ holland V
never know about this restaurant till friday evening. was there for jacQ bday dinner. food wise aint bad but price is a bit steep. had a good late evening with the hall people! its been some times since i last sat down with them to just chat away! they went to wala wala after dinner and me home for baby YZ. a lil' tempted to follow suit but i was missing the lil' pumpkin by then! never mind its home to a sound sleeping baby! most mummies will agree that nuzzling a sleeping baby is about the nicest thing in the world! oh, and thanks to JacQ for the dinner! the hot bday girl shows up with a very nice bob! :)

from left: jo, tresa, jacQ, me

cooking up a storm
company had a healthy lunch box session on friday noon which i attended. applied it most immediately on sat! so the ng family trooped down to bukit merah town centre NTUC to get the necessary ingredients for lunch. and i think i did great, despite having cooked for less than 5 times for the past 1 year.. *ha*
menu is - 1) asparugus with mayo served cold 2) chicken and egg rice (similar to oyakodon).
the husband is an ingrate. prefers chinese food to japanese ones and wanted his stir-fried sliced beef with brocolli. bleh.

losing the patience with the baby
sometimes my worst fear is that im a lousy mummy. for i have the patience of a peanut. or lesser. be it with my own mum, hubby or anyone. esp. when the temper gets the better of me, i lash out. and its not funny to be at the receiving end. and now, i fear that one day baby YZ will get it from me. it happened a few times before and yesterday was yet another time.

ah long had a wedding dinner to attend and its home alone with baby. for the 1stfew hours or so, everything was still fine. we played together or he played alone while i read some magazine. but soon, he became fussy. i cant get out of his sight and he didnt want to be in his play yard so i brought him to the bedroom. there, he didnt want me to carry him yet want to crawl all over the room and its not safe. and im getting tired chasing him here and there and im slowly getting impatient and angry. :(

then he started sucking on things everywhere! his own pillow, my pillow, the mattress and even the floor. worried that its unhygenic, i sat him up and said "no" in a very stern voice. he blinked and stopped but the next minute he laughed and proceeded to do the same thing again. so back n forth , i repeated the same thing few times and him the same. and then i lost my temper, i gave him small slaps on his thighs n palms but maybe not painful enough for him, he ignored and struggled to get away from me to continue looking for things to suck on! and then i decided enough is enough. to stop myself from losing my cool further, i gathered him up and stormed to the living room and put him in his play yard while pacing up and down the living room. he started crying. perhaps he can stand my anger, perhaps he cant stand being in the play yard alone.

in any case, i started thinking. which is good cos it gave me time to think about things. read from books that sometimes when the baby gets to you, its best to leave the room to calm down, ignoring their cries and only returning when u've settled yourself. seems to work for me. i know that he may be getting tired hence, the fussiness. hence, i went to prepare the stuff to wipe him down, new set of PJs and diaper. all the while, he cried till so pitifully in the play-yard. maybe cos he thought i abandoning him. oops.

when i carried him up, he stopped crying immediately and clung on to me. and i felt so guilty. cos im his mummy and the one he depends on the most at this stage of his life. and yet, i fail to see his needs at times and responded impatiently. :(
so i brought him back to our room, wiped him down and changed his clothes for sleeptime. and then its time for me to wash up in the toilet. normally, when im doing this, he'll crawl all over our bed and i will rush in and out of the toilet in case he rolled off from the platform bed. but yesterday, baby shows his smartness by becoming very "guai". perhaps after the crying episode, he knew he better listen to me, in case risk getting "outcast" to the play yard again..

so i was shouting to him from the toilet as usual "baby wait wait.. stop stop. mummy will be done soon" AND to my surprise, he really stopped mid-track, smiled at me and lied down. and so i said "sleep sleep 1st, wait for mummy" and he actually lay his head down on the bed and wait for me patiently. all the time smiling. wah, this little devil-turned-angel!

and that started the guilt for me. so i carried him to sleep yesterday instead of lying next to him, patting him to sleep.

i must remember to remind myself when baby tries my patience next time that he is just a baby. he is still testing his boundaries, not knowing what is acceptable and what is not. im the one he relies on the most and i should live up to that. and not be so harsh to him when he is fussy, cos he may just be tired or not feeling well. i must also learnt to walk away in time to calm myself down and think through things. better him wailing for awhile then i stayed with him and got so upset that i scold or beat him. sigh.

okie, motherhood is definitely not easy. hope i'll get better with time.

some random pixs of baby: