Friday, April 29, 2011

i am just a mother of two. pui, who cares!

nowadays, its so easy to just give a disclaimer saying im no guru, specialist or hey, im just a normal teenager, average citizen blah blah and then proceed to slam people left right, upside down.
so convenient.
yes, you know what i am talking about.
cant stop the onslaught of "notes" on facebook being shared.
cant resist reading them too.
and then getting my blood boiled most of the times.
well, there are indeed some well-written notes that are thoughts-provoking as well as giving us the impression that the authors DO indeed make effort to research and think through their arguments before presentation.

BUT! alot of random notes are just like TPL! riding on the coattails of those i mentioned above!
stupid analogies, far-fetched assumptions and criticizing people whom they have never meet before or even bother to research more on these people's credibility.
im rendered speechless, most of the time.
to me, most of the above are just verbal diarrhea.

disclaimer: i know nothing about politics, i just want to give my 2 cents worth.

Friday, April 22, 2011

kite-watching + piling on the pounds

its good friday, start of the long weekend! *wee*
the boys have just recovered from a bout of HFMD (though a mild one). :(
yes, for the second time...
so we decided to just go out in the late afternoon when the sun aint so hot.
and we were really glad when a short sudden downpour at 3+pm made the weather a lil' cooler after that.
so where did the ng family go today?
we set off for marine barrage for kite-watching after the boys' naps in the afternoon!


my little nut looks really really cute in these photos! :)

both the boys were really happy to see all the kites in the sky!
and we let them to roam freely on the green. peanut is especially happy!
some photos:















check out my scrunched up face!

given the limited dining choices there, we left the place at 6+pm for town.
dinner was at Imperial treasure @ triple one.
after that, we went 313 as i've previously inquired for a zara pants and was notified that the stock has came! :)

the story goes like this, i chanced upon this lovely blue cropped pants but the sizes left on the shelf were XS, M, L, XL.
obviously, i cant fit into size XS with my butt.
i was normally a S/M for zara so i tried the M since S is not available.
M was a tad too loose so i requested for them to check if there is any size S available in other branches.
turned out, size S is OOS in all branches. @_@
so i left my contact for them to call me once the stock is replenished.

now, im naturally rejoiced that size S is available.
BUT, when i tried it on, its a lil' too tight for me!!!
AND when i tried size M, it fits me well now!!!
so i can only conclude i put on the pounds in just 1 week time. madness.
oh well, this didnt stop me from getting the pants (in size M, of cos...) and a top from zara! :)

we reached home at 9pm, just in time for the boys to sleep.
but as usual, with the wiping up and milk-drinking, it was almost 10+pm before they finally zzz...
haha, better than nothing lah.
time to spend some time with hubbi.
WHO decided that reading headlines with his iphone is more fun than spending time with me. pui.
ok, shall go disturb him now.

Thursday, April 21, 2011

learning as a process

the husband shared something really interesting to me and i would like to share it with you guys!

there are generally 4 levels to learning as a process:
1) you don't know what you don't know
oh gosh, you are even clueless over what you dont know!

2) you know what you don't know
ok, better now. you are aware where the gap in your knowledge lies.
but the question is, are you going to do anything about it?

3) you know what you know
i guess >50% of the people should be in this stage.
you are good at your stuff. good for you!

4) you don't know what you know.
you are so good at what you know that its incorporated in your reflexes.
for eg, when doing a right turn while driving, you pushed down the signal for right turn, check your blind spot while your hand automatically start steering the wheel to the right.
all these without your conscious mind knowing.
wow. i want to be at this stage.
time to work harder.

good food for thought for the above?
i really hope so!

Saturday, April 16, 2011

wat a day..............

the day started really awesome for the ng family. we decided not to be lazy and left the house at 9am! breakfast for this weekend saturday was at jones the grocer @ dempsey. :)

me with the boys



breakfast was definitely nicer as compared to spruce but if i must choose, i still prefer CA & wild honey ones!


started eating before remembering to take a photo. ha. after that, we went to ion @ orchard.

there was no crowd due to the early timing and we let the kids roam around to their delight. incredibly, i could not find anything i like froom some of my fav. brands. BUT, i managed to find a brand which designs "co-incidentally" mirror some of the other brands almost to the T.

been awhile since i last bought anything there, but i went home with 2 new tops from this brand. tsk tsk.



we reached home at 2+pm and the ng family just K.O.ed together for an afternoon nap till almost 5pm!

but when we woke up, yz suddenly developed fever. :(

not sure if this is due to his cough for the longest time or an onset of a new virus/bacteria.

we are monitoring for the time being and see if we should bring him to see doc first thing next morn.

sigh.

get well, baby. mama is very sad to see you unwell.

Friday, April 15, 2011

its been so long since the husband and i both take leave just to catch up with each other! im so glad we did so today! even though its just a simple lunch+movie+shopping combo, we are happy! :)

limitless is a good enough easy watch for a friday. keeps the mood light and happy! :)

when will be the next time before ah long and me have time to ourselves again without the kids....? hmmmm.....

Thursday, April 14, 2011

count my blessings, i will. (longest post ever?)

recently, i've the opportunity to talk to many others with regards to some planned changes in my life. its interesting how everyone differs in their thinking and perspective of life. so far, ive viewed myself to be pretty open-minded and definitely understand and accept that there are bound to be differences among people. my take is always for those who matter to me, i will try to resolve the differences or just accept them. for those whom i cant be bothered, i will keep contact to a minimal level so i wont get too affected by them. after all, vita brevis. life is really too short to be unhappy over unworthy causes. so hopefully, others can understand that ecookie is just another individual entitled to her own beliefs too. :) im turning 30 this year. i am at a crossroads. be it that im forced to be standing here at this junction or it is i myself who led me to be here, the train of thought process has started. so i think about my life. i think about the achievements and falls ive had in my 29years+ of existence. and i agree with a close friend of mine that a person should really count him/her blessings. so i shall count here. to remind myself of how fortunate i am.

1) health.
im asthmatic. i was forced to stay off cold drinks of any kind till i was in mid-pri school when i secretly sipped cold drinks in school without my parents knowing. i have asthma attacks a few times a year but pretty under control with the help of my inhaler. i was dignosed to have irregular heartbeat during a routine health check up. a follow-up with a cardio specialist showed that one of my valve of the heart chamber is not functioning quite normally. test results showed that its not detrimental to my overall health as of now, anyway. so i guess, im pretty healthy. and all my love ones have no major health issues too. thats really one of the biggest blessings anyone can have.

2) love.
i must have done some good deeds in my previous life to meet ah long. ive been falling in and out of love (are those really love?) at an alarming rate before i met him. i seldom talk about him here for im normally not the type who gushes over her other half. but now i shall highlight some of his good points, just to remind myself. haha.

sidetrack, my eyes never failed to tear whenever i heard of this song recently - <因为爱情>
especially these few lines: 因为爱情 简单的生长依然随时可以为你疯狂 this is such an ideal situation. 我还可以随时为你疯狂吗? the answer is not a definite yes. anyone in a r/s long enough will understand that 生活磨人. ive always been the more cynical one in this r/s. i always harp about how we must consistently monitor the r/s for a change in heart can happen ever so quickly w/o the 当事人 realising. but ah long, him being him, has always been firm in his belief that status quo should not change. im not sure if he is being over-idealistic or too simple in thinking. haha. but im thankful that he teaches me to have that lil' more faith in our marriage. 有时会突然忘了我还在爱着你 we need some reminders on-off, dont we all?

gosh, im getting teary suddenly. emo ninny like a certain mr ng.

i was watching again with ah long just 2 nights ago. i guess at the end of the day, its really important to find someone who really just accept you for who you really are.
we have just past our 9 years mark and i can safely conclude he has seen my immature, bitchy, manipulative, vengeful, insensitve and many other bad sides. and he is still sticking around. hmmm... i think i better clean up my act. having said so, he has his own terrible sides too ok!

3) family.
it used to be only my mum, dad, bro and extended family. now i ve my own 2 lovely boys. yz and yr are one of the best things that could happen to me in my life. i cant say im the best mum in the world but i always try my best to be a good one to them. still a little short in the patience and effort departments, i guess. i can only try harder. my parents are great too. from young, they give me the freedom i crave and is never the strict, law enforcing parents that i so dread. and my r/s with bro does improve as we grow up. haha. so yup, family is good.

4) friends.
i consider myself very lucky to be surrounded by some of the people i love alot in the world who love me as well ( i think lah). ive always tried to put in effort in maintaining relations with people that matter to me. for those who dont bother to reciprocate the effort despite me reaching out, i have nothing to say but bye bye to the friendships. i wont get pissed/angry but just dissappointed. but as i said, life goes on. so i wont get too hung up with sad cases like these for too long.

5) career. or just a job?
as u can see, i try to list down the above in terms of importance in my life. hehe. im currently in my 3rd job in my 7.5 years of working life since graduation. my 1st job allowed me to gain valuable working experience that definitely work for me in my career progression path. it allows to meet and keep in touch with some great people. till today, im still keeping in touch with a good number of my ex-colls from my 1st job. :) my 2nd job is the one that gives me the least job happiness in my working life so far. all i can say is bad management suck. bad culture suck too. still, i managed to befriend some wonderful people from there too. :) though we only meet up like 2-3 times a year @_@. hehe. since im unhappy then, no point whining and complaining. so i took action and made a job change!

im really lucky to land in my current job. it gives me exposure in an area that i've very limited exposure to before this - financial reporting. and it definitely value-adds to my resume. most importantly, for the past 3 years here, the work-life balance has matched nicely with my family planning. over here, im allowed to spend quality time with yz, had a rather stress-free pregnancy, added yr to our family, have control over my timing to juggle my responsibilities as a wife, mum, daughter, friend etc well.
im really thankful for the past 3 years. :)

so it seems like my life is good enough from the above. of cos, i have my fair share of unhappiness in life on-off. but if you notice, i seldom grouse too much here.

because i try not to let negative things get to me so much that ive to blog 'em out. normally, i just whine and scold to friends/family to let off steam and then i move on. as i said, unworthy people/things are really not worth my time and attention. one belief i hold on strongly to is definitely this - if you are unhappy with anything, either accept it or do something. whining/complaining can only bring you so far. at the end of the day, you are still the one facing the shit. not the others.

so for those who really know me, you will realise after a bout of whining, i will try to do something about it. be it just going ahead with the plans, saving up and buying the thing, confronting the person, avoiding the person etc. i will just have to do something. but this is me. i accept and respect those who decide to hang on to something bad. or complain incessantly about the same thing. its just their choice. like its my choice to act on something. for at the end of the day, no matter what is your opinion about others' lives. its still them living their lives, like you are living yours. to each his own. ok ive digressed.

anyway, im supposed to be in this very fortunate situation as mentioned by 1 friend.
and i should not be wanting more? instead, i should be contented...... and stay put? im still very confused. i think being contented can co-exist with having the drive/desire for changes? but again, another friend mentioned that if you are contented with your life, there should be no need for changes. hmmmm.... i discussed this matter with ah long. (im so glad that my husband is still willing to entertain me on this subject and actually have the content and arguments to engage in a long enough conversation with me! LOL) we both believe in Maslow's pyramid thingy that at the tip of it is called self-actualization. (wow, we share the same beliefs. good.)

self-actualization is kinda like fulfilling one's potential.

its something like this:
self-actualization esteem love and belonging safety needs physiological needs i guess my physiological needs are defintely fulfilled. my safety needs too. i have love and a sense of belonging in my current network of family and friends. i defintely have a healthy sense of self-esteem. what's left is the self-actualization part. and what is this? im clueless. ah long and me have a debate over it. it seems like everyone has a different sort of potential to fulfill. some may want to be the ideal parent. some may want to give love to the unfortunate. some may want to earn those millions. again, you must be clear with what's your potential is and then realizing it. well, most of us despite our old age, is still seeking for the meaning of life. one minute we just want that super career, one minute we just want to be with the love of our life and everything takes a step back etc. but one thing for sure is change is a constant. so is your potential? by mastering the pyramid of needs above, you may not end up being super happy/contented but im sure it will at least bring you one step closer to nirvana. higher degree of life-satisfaction im sure. im still unsure of what i can do, what i can achieve but that should not stop me from constantly trying to understand more, seeking out and venturing into new areas which may not be the answers at the end. afterall, life is but a trial and error. :)

currently, im a little dissatisfied with an aspect of my life.
just because im more fortunate than alot of people means i have to stay mute and just stay on? i dont think so. there will always be lots of people worse off than me, same like lots of people more fortunate/successful than me. i wont feel guilty pursing better life when i face those unfortunate people. i wont feel jealous when i see those better off people parading their good life to me. i am just living my own life, like they are living theirs. so long i can answer to myself for my decisions and not affecting anyone negatively directly, why should i care about how people think? ecookie ah ecookie. for ages, ive pride myself to be strong enough to be resilient to others' negative comments or judgemental remarks. so why should i fall this time round? hehe. im back! for those who love me, they will support me unconditionally. just like i've back those i love unconditionally even when they sprout the most unreasonable/illogical thought/action/remark at times. :)

most importantly, ah long has told me that no matter what my decision is, he will support me.
this is the best support i can hope for. im truly blessed.

disclaimer: i hope you dun feel im 晒-ing 幸福 here.
im really just counting my blessings which i have not done in the longest time.

Saturday, April 09, 2011

Spruce, Nex & hanging out with the girls!

nowadays the working week just flashed past and im so caught up with 1,001 things that i just dont have the time nor energy to update my blog during the week! before i know it, saturday is here again! so what did the ng family did today? we left the house early at 9+am for brekkie. look how grouchy the boys are! tsk tsk.

so where did we go for breakfast? we went spruce! i had a good experience for their dining hence the decision. but sadly, i cant say the same for their breakfast .....

yz's thick lips must be from ah long! brekkie... not very impressive and not cheap at all. bleh. after a not so satisfying breakfast, we made our way to NEX! its our first time there but we didnt have much problem finding our way and parking there. perhaps, due to the early timing that we reached there. NEX, per my expectation, has nothing much and definitely not my cup of tea... we left around 1+pm for the boys' naps and we saw a long snaking queue of cars waiting to enter NEX! stella, jm & ah boon came to our house for a small session of catchin up at 4+pm! the boys were excited with their company in the house too. :) after which, we had a simple zi char dinner near our house in the evening. now with both the boys zzzing, its time for the husband and me to catch up with some "us"-time. perhaps chips and movie combi again? hehe.

Sunday, April 03, 2011

nowadays my sundays are pretty much set. we will all move out of the house early at 8+am to send yz to his weekly phonics lesson. after his lessons, we will go to my in-laws place for lunch. by 1+pm, we will leave their place for our own for the boys to nap for the afternoon. after the nap, we are pretty good to go anywhere! but we are running out of places to go..... so yesterday, we found ourselves back at vivo again. just a short 20mins drive from our place, children-friendly, good selection of dinner choices and some of my fav. brands, nothing much to complain about! while husband was busy making cake (hehehe), i brought the boys to the playground area and let them roam free. can see that yr was berry happy! after spending most of the week weak from stomach flu, the boy is back in business! he was walking up and down non-stop. definitely more garang than the gor gor in climbing here and there. :) my lil' peanut looks so grown up now! @ 14m++ the brothers trying on shades @ GAP. i cant say enough of this: they are the love of my life!

Saturday, April 02, 2011

Dinner @ Culina

the ng family decided to venture out for good yummy dinner on saturday! i will be treating hubbi since im getting my (pathetic) bonus payout this month! we wanted to have an early dinner partly the boys had their lunches early and to avoid the crowd but we encountered much obstacles in trying to do so. haha.

stop #1: Spruce cafe which is just a stone throw from our house. we reached at 5pm and was told that dinner orders will only be taken from 530pm onwards. @_@ dont think the monkeys can sit still for a whole 30 mins, we left the place and drove to dempsey area for better options.

stop#2: PS cafe for i've cravings for its truffle fries for the longest time since ching told me about her dinner! tsk tsk. BUT PS cafe is worse! dinner starting only from 630pm!! OMG. we left the place and drove (again) to the main area of dempsey.

stop #3: jones the grocer this time round, thinking i can stuff myself silly with egg benedict or something but of cos dinner is not until 6+pm. *teared* so difficult to have an early dinner meh!? in the end, we walked over to the opposite cafe, Culina. and yay, it serves food regardless of timing! so here we stayed and a yummy dinner we did have eventually!

escargots for appertisers!! so proud of yz who tried and liked it. LOL

us with our mains! we had warm choco cake for desserts after.

after dinner, we walked around the area for awhile before making our way home. it has been a short "busy" evening for us. hehe.

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