REAL!
i was having the blues like on the 2nd day at my mum's place. :(
why? stemmed from the following:
1) total loss when wormy started crying for no apparant reason (now we know why but let's talk about this next time)
2) over-zealous parents with no parenting experience. im talking about my dad here. he has no experience with babies yet his concern for wormy is driving me MAD! whenever wormy cries, he'll keep on asking me why wHY WHY?! im a new parent myself and admist the wailing, im trying to establish the reason behind it and he's really not helping with his incessant asking. he's making me feel bad with being a lousy mum.
3) wormy has jaundice. though most babies have it, its really sad to see that in your own baby. and being a year-end baby, wormy lacked the good fortune to have sunny sun. and this is not helping with the jaundice. he needs sunlight to flush it out of his body! *sobz*
lucky ah long was around for the first week to help me out with every other stuff. and THEN, i started getting the blues when i recalled that he's going back to work from the 2nd week onwards. :(
anyway the 1st week was really terrible and i found myself in tears sometimes for no apparant reasons (or for all the reasons in the world). *sigh* lucky now progressing into the 3rd week, im getting the support im needing and getting the hang of things (albeit slowly), the blues are slowly dissipating.
now, im just living day by day and hope that i will be a better mum as time passes and wormy will grow up healthily! :)
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